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Do you have any idea how it feels? I am, by default, forever the antagonist of this ongoing story. I didn't mean to be. I didn't have any intention to take things to this degree. I never do. Does anybody realize that? Has anyone even tried to see it from my point of view? The answer is a simple, "no." It's always been easier to assume who I am from the surface of my actions. With that being said, I am constantly patronized. I know. I'm just so, abhorrent. You know, that's not me, right? I'm actually the type of person that looks at things unpretentiously. That's me, by default. Once you're in my heart, my mind, you're a part of me. I don't ever objectively think twice about those I care for. But you people don't know that, do you? I'm sorry that I'm just not interested in displaying any vulnerability. The less you know, the less it hurts when it's gone. I'd rather be misunderstood by a stretch than easily disregarded as a joke. Ever since the beginning, I realized my sensitivity through situations where I had taken advantage of. I let people into my heart, but they just stepped over me. I was the loser. I was the object. I was the joke, and I was the one at loss. I just couldn't let this happen.