Anxiety.

Lately, it has been as if I have been consuming myself alive. I feel so lost, and I think I'm at this phase again where I don't know what to do next. But I've also noticed that when this happens, it's only during the times where I feel like there's nothing for me to do, that I'm not moving. I'm becoming one of those people! Do you know me anymore? It's very consuming how our world revolves and moves so fast, I'm finding out that a nice hobby of mine now is to sit back while also having things going on, and just lay there. During those times, it feels as though everything is revolving around, consuming me, enabling me to just sit in the center of it all and observe the things around us. Much like in the ride "Space Mountain" in my local, yet worldwide attraction of Disneyland, thats what I love. 

I have in fact, lost myself in the fast world. 

But that's okay. It's about time I get out the door and go find myself anyway! I'm realizing that all that we, people, aim for and want, when we are in that moment of the wish being fulfilled, we don't realize it. When something good happens to us, we do not know. We find it to be "okay and normal" and something is just in the works, thus we feel like everything is not as good as it had seemed, aka when the wish had not been fulfilled. The best way to deal with those situations of adventure, fulfillment, spontaneity, and happiness, are not realized to be great until after it's over. Isn't everything in life supposed to be though? 

Well I'm going to leave you lovelies hanging at that thought. Farewell! AND! Sorry, my mindset have been changing a lot, it's getting busy.