Katrina Nguyen

I think the times are hitting me hard all at once. In a sense, its not so bad because I sometimes feel as if I still have free time to wander around doing nothing and being unproductive. But by the night time, I feel so frusrated and cluttered. Sometimes I feel like I don't know what to do, particularily where to start. I NEED to do so much, with what I feel like so little time. Although, on other days when I look at my calendars and to-do lists, (Yeah I've become one of those people) I see days left. But for some reason they all seem so little to me. For some reason it takes me a lot longer than it really does to get a thing done. My endless distractions and minorities really hold me back and sometimes I feel like beating myself up about it. But afterall, sometimes I feel like beating myself up about everything.

I just get too aggravated. Lately, our move is just too much going on. My head fills like it is compacted and filled with things, but when I think about it, it seems to be hot air. I get so mad at myself when it is about 11PM at night and I'm so tired that I MUST go to sleep yet I haven't gotten anything done and I have things to do the next day. What to do... is not the question. Its the absolute opposite of the question to be asked in this stage right now. But its what I'm always constantly asking, because my trouble is finding the answer of "Where to start?"

"Killing Time"