Katrina Nguyen

Honestly lately, I've been on a mental roller coaster. I've lost sight of what I want and what I don't want. I really don't know how to handle myself anymore. Always, a part of me seems to want something but then, it will only come to a halt as the other part of me lists it's cons. This trait that I'm adopting is basically driving my mother and all others around me, crazy. I don't know what I want. I honestly don't. Everything seems to have just as many cons as it's counterpart. There isn't anything good enough, and when it is, I feel that it's too much. I'm too spontaneously reckless. I basically cause myself to run in circles, trying to figure out who the hell I want to be. Perhaps, its time for some maintenance of my life, I need to get myself into check. After all, I can't possibly return to school as this wreck of a person that I am at the moment. Oh god, if you actually exist, please save me. I'm drowning in my own misery.