Katrina Nguyen

I go through life putting constant mental strain on myself. I basically force and torture myself into doing things- just to prove points. When I get angry, I frequently find myself with thoughts of self-harm just for retaliation. Remorse, regret, and guilt were supposed to be my weapons. In order to prove certain points, I didn't mind making myself cry/hurt, ruin my relationships, or care. I basically put everything on mute just to show that I am, indeed, superior over you & that you are nothing to me. You didn't mean anything to me, your devious words didn't affect me, yet I'm going to make you regret it. To make you miss me, and realize how fucken amazing I was to you. Egoistic, yeah. Condescending, narcisstic, and arrogant, I know.

I'm not going to let you think I'm any other pathetic fool that's believed your tricks. I've figured you out but I wouldn't let you know. Instead, I have a tendency to use that hidden knowledge as my secret weapon (literally) and fuck with you. Once people have done something go me, and taken me for a fool, it's time. War has began. Fuck feelings, fuck memories, and fuck how much I cared about you. Because now it's all nonexistent. I'm going to force myself to not care about you at ALLL, as if you were a stranger and completely cut you off. Cold? I know. But this is all a game to me. Everything is part of a bigger effort. Once I find out YOUR threatening thoughts towards me, I make sure to do scheme up something that would override yours and make you regret ever taking men for a fool. I'm going to fuck with your feelings and not even say a word why. I'm just going to do it. It hurts the most that way.

Thanks for showing me, once again after others have, that people are shit. Thank god I decided to be a bitch rather than a victim. Tell your heart that I enjoyed it with milk, because I'm fucken eating that shit for breakfast. LOL