I never thought that I would miss you guys, my girls. Honest to god. I always felt that I was so independent, that I would be okay as long as I had my own mind and thinking to go on. I thought that it would be okay wherever I would be, friends didn't matter. I'm at school to do me, not you. I felt that it would've been fun to actually branch away and meet new people, but now I'm realizing that it's hard and that I do miss you guys. For days and weeks it never really occurred to me until I saw you guys again yesterday. For awhile, I thought that it would be okay, if not, not bad to steer away from my girlfriends. I was so convinced that it wouldn't matter and honestly, they are just friends. Call me cold, but I mean 20 years from now will we even remember the people around us? I'm sorry but that is just my mind mindset. Don't get me wrong, I love the people around me. But what I think is actually important is my future, just saying. Nothing more, nothing less, and nothing personal. I just was so convinced I'd do fine. Or maybe its just that you guys are such a good batch of friends. I just got sad seeing that now we're all apart. I loved our long conversations and I'm finally realizing that it's not the same anymore! Maybe I'm giving you guys a bit too much appreciation saying this right now >:) But still. When I saw two of my bests yesterday, I had fun although we didn't talk or do much. It's just this odd feeling that we are not in sync anymore and I feel as if there are left over feelings after we parted our ways, which has never happened. Well, I don't know. I like you guys, I guess.
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