Don't panic.

I feel half of what I used to be, but that's okay, I guess. I think as of right now, I am too indecisive to really think straight and I feel like there is something over me. I guess you can say that I feel scared,  I just feel scared. I never realized that although I thought that I was ready for so much, I really wasn't. There are many things that are hitting me right now and I feel as if I'm in a phase. The more I see it, the more I yearn for Utopia. I am definitely willing to sacrifice it all for that at this moment. To be a Utopian. I wonder what makes us come to terms with all of our surroundings and the events that pass by us. I feel like I am standing in the middle of a fast paced street, scared and flustered. I see that day and day, I use the word "flustered" more and more. It feels like I'm in between Wonderland and the real world. I never thought that I would be able to relate to the story of Alice & her little white rabbit, but now I do. It's about time now that I've reached an epiphany and realize that I'm growing up, the times are changing, and I no longer have the time to stand back and just observe the things around me. Although, I don't think I am succeeding towards the path of finding myself at the moment, I have a feeling I'm just getting started.