What I want to point out, is how I miss last year. All of those people who were with me during school, all of the things and conversations I used to have, all of the things I used to do..
I miss them. Things feel more solitary nowadays.. I'm not complaining, its alright, but I can't help but reminisce, you know? I had a crowd surrounding me a long time ago, but now I feel as if it's just mainly myself.
I guess being alone could be a good thing, don't you guys agree? This way, your decisions aren't influenced by any outside forces and its just what is best for us, or at least whatever we are convinced is best for ourselves--
And speaking about whatever is best for ourselves, I'm trying to realize that I don't exactly need anyone else. All of these times that my parents have said that "Having a lot of friends, isn't a good thing." is really starting to hit me. But of course, I love my friends and I'm not going to become some complete loner or something. Its just that I'm realizing that I don't need to have a crowd around me wherever I go. I don't always need more than one person by my side and walking around with me in a group. I don't need to ask them about what to do, and I don't need to do what they do.
I want to learn to do what's best for me. I need to learn that honesty really is the best policy and that When I do something that I feel is the best thing for me, it IS the best thing for me as long as I learn to make the best of things.
Of course, I'm still a kid and I don't really know what is best for me, but that's okay, isnt it? I need to fail to learn anyways :)
P.S. There is a song that is kind of stuck in my head although I don't really like the meaning of it as a whole. But it's chorus is really inspiring.
So we'll crawl until we can walk again,
And we'll run until we're strong enough to jump,
And we'll fly until there is no end,
So let's crawl.
You've guessed it, its Crawl by Chris Brown LOL.
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