Katrina Nguyen

He's made her the happiest she's ever been. 
He's made her the happiest girl alive. 
She never knew that a level of happiness existed. 
Yet, she wasn't okay on the inside.


Day by day, he drew her higher and higher. 
Unfortunately this also meant
Once she fell,
it was a longer drop. 


It wasn't him. 
The more enamored he became with her,
the worse she started to become within herself.
She didn't want him to have to go through 
the Mess.


The Mess belonged to her.
It was a product of herself.
It consumed her.  


It was a horrible, despicable thing.
the Mess was capable of swallowing her alive.
She didn't know how else to deal with it. 
She didn't want to affect him with it. 
Such nonsense. 


Ironically, he knew. 
He was conscious of it. 
She knew the Mess. 
it would affect him. 


That was the last thing she wanted.
For him, it was okay to give up things she loved.
She didn't deserve them. 
Simply, she didn't think she deserved him.